My Weight Struggle

I have always been chubby when I was young. Well except when I was between 7 to 9 years old, I was a bit bony and chunky (ok really that did not make sense at all).
The worst was after I had my son. It was ok at first but I could just not stop stuffing my face with anything in sight. I love food. I love eating. Then here it comes one morning I looked at the mirror and I was not satisfied so I took a picture. To my disgrace, I stopped taking a picture of myself and stopped looking at the mirror. Then things was not working with my marriage. The fights were constant and non sense. It was awful when you have a child and could not get along with your spouse. The verbal abuse wasn't helping me with my weight problem. It was the late 2003 my dear friend Matilda and her boyfriend Will opened a nice upscale club in Philly. They invited me and my hubby to go, since my ex was informed that its an open bar and free drinks he wanted to go. I was a little hesitant but what the hell so we went. I had a blast! So I went out again with Matilda (without the hubby) and met more people. I kept enjoying myself and thought I need new wardrobe!!! Because I was a 200lb woman, I felt so uncomfortable haning around MATILDA since she is like a walking stick. I've told myself that day that I would try to cut down on my food intake. So instead of ordering a Personal Pizza and a dozen buffalo wings for lunch I ordered a small salad with no dressing. Low fat here and there! Next thing I know from a size 16 I was fitting on size 12. I was so happy that I was fitting in more clothes but he night outs with my friends was not helping my marriage. Since I love my son, I stop going out and instead tried to save my marriage. A year later, whew!!! He was out the door and thank goodness I maintained the weight but the size 12 was getting tight. I was stuffing my face with food and CHOCOLATE. After the separation, I was really determined to lose as much weight as I can. It was January 2005, since yo momma is now single there is a need for new outfit!!!! I was so amaze when I tried on a size 6 jeans and they fit. Hurray it worked it worked! And it did not end there. I am have been living with my boyfriend have been back to being content. Now I have to start all over again and try to shed some more I am still between size 8-10 but hey at least not that huge anymore.


I know that there are women who are content with their looks. I have so much insecurities and I did not feel good about myself. I am not trying to offend anyone I just want to share my story and I felt I succeed.